I hate to think of myself as being depressed. I hate to think of myself as closed in. But I cannot deny that this is how I sometimes feel.
As I write, my thoughts turn to confusion. Not knowing. Not feeling clear.
We are all endowed with time. We have 86,400 seconds in each day (although I sleep 28,800 seconds every night without regrets). That leaves 58,000 seconds left over.
What am I supposed to do with my time? That is a question that I am sure a lot of other people would have as well. Unfortunately, I often fail to allocate time to the most important things.
I believe that several things are critical to bringing me into feelings of equilibrium, harmony, and happiness. (1) Focus my attention on some sort of vision or purpose for my life. (2) Take time for regular meditation. (3) Definitely put first things first — this means that I must take regular time to plan/schedule the most important activities for my life.
The last thing I would say (and I will leave with a question…) is… how do I know what is causing the problems in my life? There have been times in my life where I have felt really on track and now I am at a point in my life where I feel helter skelter. Does anyone have a technique to create personal awareness of the changes in ones life and how past personal actions affect their present life?
I’m Second guessing.
I’m Not flowing. Self-loathing.
Sit down. Meditate.